Walking by faith does NOT mean you will never have trials...
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Friday, July 15, 2011
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Perfection
I don't know about the rest of humanity, but I know that reaching perfection in character, performance, duty, righteousness, holiness, self-image, social appearances has always been a stronghold for me. I have always had this "failure-like" mentality, that no matter how hard I tried or how good I did in something, sure enough, I would turn around and fall, fail or disappoint myself in some way or another.
I have realized lately that the world is not mad at me... *tears*... wow, that hit deep to type that out... I will type that again, The World is Not Mad at Me... wow... for some, that is simple, for me, that is a Huge new way of thinking, an amazing realization, a newfound freedom to simply BE... you see, my dad is an alcoholic and all my life from before I left my mother's womb, he has yelled and yelled and yelled and yelled... in his world, everyone, and I mean everyone is wrong and he was sure to let us know it again and again and again... he was always filled with such anger and rage at my mom, his parents (this is where those roots of hurt lie), the whole world around him was the target of his anger, anger that came from years of hurt and pain that he never dealt with as a child, a teenager, a young adult... and even now... he has had these wounds festering such bitterness, hatred and anger and it spewed out on us, his sweet children. I know he loved us, but we were there and the stress that was upon him from not learning how to love and to be loved just came out on us... we were always scared, well, more like completely terrified of what he might do to us or our mom... He was just always mad... this is so heavy and I don't think I can write further on this now... but I do want to write that:
God has been working in my heart in a big way lately and has taught me on a much deeper level that:
It is on Christ the solid Rock we stand - all other ground is sinking sand. If we stand on the rock of ourselves, we are sure to sink!
I can do all things THROUGH CHRIST, who strengthens me - my fleshly nature will always be such, and will always be mortal, thus, the "THROUGH CHRIST" part of this verse... He gets all the Glory!
The bottom line is, I have jumped off of the roller-coaster of ME and am OKAY knowing that... I, in and of myself, will never be "perfect" in the human sense of the word and it is ONLY in Christ and through Christ that I stand! WOOH! Sweet Freedom! No more striving towards the impossible!
Jesus said in Matthew 11:28-30 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
I have realized lately that the world is not mad at me... *tears*... wow, that hit deep to type that out... I will type that again, The World is Not Mad at Me... wow... for some, that is simple, for me, that is a Huge new way of thinking, an amazing realization, a newfound freedom to simply BE... you see, my dad is an alcoholic and all my life from before I left my mother's womb, he has yelled and yelled and yelled and yelled... in his world, everyone, and I mean everyone is wrong and he was sure to let us know it again and again and again... he was always filled with such anger and rage at my mom, his parents (this is where those roots of hurt lie), the whole world around him was the target of his anger, anger that came from years of hurt and pain that he never dealt with as a child, a teenager, a young adult... and even now... he has had these wounds festering such bitterness, hatred and anger and it spewed out on us, his sweet children. I know he loved us, but we were there and the stress that was upon him from not learning how to love and to be loved just came out on us... we were always scared, well, more like completely terrified of what he might do to us or our mom... He was just always mad... this is so heavy and I don't think I can write further on this now... but I do want to write that:
God has been working in my heart in a big way lately and has taught me on a much deeper level that:
It is on Christ the solid Rock we stand - all other ground is sinking sand. If we stand on the rock of ourselves, we are sure to sink!
I can do all things THROUGH CHRIST, who strengthens me - my fleshly nature will always be such, and will always be mortal, thus, the "THROUGH CHRIST" part of this verse... He gets all the Glory!
The bottom line is, I have jumped off of the roller-coaster of ME and am OKAY knowing that... I, in and of myself, will never be "perfect" in the human sense of the word and it is ONLY in Christ and through Christ that I stand! WOOH! Sweet Freedom! No more striving towards the impossible!
Jesus said in Matthew 11:28-30 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Thursday, February 24, 2011
The Priest of Our Home
"Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything."
I love this passage and I am so thankful to have a wonderful husband who loves me and leads me as Christ leads the church. My husband is not perfect, but I know he is lead by God when it matters most and I am so thankful to rest in that.
I love my Husband and the divine role he plays in mine and my children's lives.
I love this passage and I am so thankful to have a wonderful husband who loves me and leads me as Christ leads the church. My husband is not perfect, but I know he is lead by God when it matters most and I am so thankful to rest in that.
I love my Husband and the divine role he plays in mine and my children's lives.
There is None Like YOU
The words to a song are singing in my mind... "I could search for all eternity long, and find; there is none like You". Wow! So true. No matter what this life may bring your way there is only ONE answer... Jesus. The depths of His love, healing, forgiveness, grace, strength, joy, and peace are matchless and we as humans have yet to tap into the depths of the freedoms we have IN HIM. We get so hung up on symptoms, distractions of this world and our own human frailties and limitations that we fail to simply look up and let God melt it all away. God will melt it all away. God WILL melt it all away! There is nothing, NOTHING this world or this life can bring our way that is impossible for Him! He has not given us a spirit of fear, panic, dismay, failure, NO, BUT He HAS given to us a spirit of Power, a spirit of Love and a SOUND MIND! Wooh! God, you are so wonderful! You are so Great!!!
Romans 8:28 - 39 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called; thoes he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in reponse to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all - how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died - more than that, who was raised to life - is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall seperate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Romans 8:28 - 39 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called; thoes he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in reponse to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all - how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died - more than that, who was raised to life - is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall seperate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Sunday, February 13, 2011
A FULL Heart
My heart is so filled to overflowing with the Love and Goodness of God. The kid's song "It's Bubblin" is such a reality for me and I am so thankful for the Holy Spirit who is my constant Companion and Counselor.
On my way to church today as we were running late I was so content and peaceful and not frantic and worried about being late... a change of heart just came over me that I may not be 'on time' but I am 'just in time' for... something great! I am still striving to be more punctual, but now in grace and not in my own strength because that just has never worked. :o)
Anyways...
On the way home from church my heart was so full that I had to put a note in my phone while I was in the Wendy's drive thru... Here they are... I will ponder these and write more on them as I find time...
"You cannot love UNCONDITIONALLY until you are loved unconditionally... learn to be loved."
"Be no one's puppet, only God's child. Change yourself for no one but only allow God to change you to be more like Him. You will never please everyone and that is not what we should try to do anyways."
On my way to church today as we were running late I was so content and peaceful and not frantic and worried about being late... a change of heart just came over me that I may not be 'on time' but I am 'just in time' for... something great! I am still striving to be more punctual, but now in grace and not in my own strength because that just has never worked. :o)
Anyways...
On the way home from church my heart was so full that I had to put a note in my phone while I was in the Wendy's drive thru... Here they are... I will ponder these and write more on them as I find time...
"You cannot love UNCONDITIONALLY until you are loved unconditionally... learn to be loved."
"Be no one's puppet, only God's child. Change yourself for no one but only allow God to change you to be more like Him. You will never please everyone and that is not what we should try to do anyways."
Saturday, January 8, 2011
I am Accepted
I have been on an amazing journey over the past few days, well, since the beginning of the new year, really. I am always hungry for more of God and seek to learn more from Him about myself and who I am in Him. Well, what is happening in my heart is simply supernatural. It reminds me of when I first got saved. I feel like God is taking me from Glory to Glory and from strength to strenth in who I am IN HIM.
This morning in particular, as I came downstairs to greet the family and join them for waffles, out of nowhere I had this sense of understanding deep in my heart and mind that I am accepted. I keep hearing in my spirit "I am accepted." I am accepted in Christ and through Christ. I don't need to do one single thing to be accepted. I don't need to prove myself. I don't need to prove myself... to anyone. God showed me that I am to just walk at peace with myself knowing that my heart is right and my heart is so full of love and peace that I don't need to worry about whether or not people see that.
I tend to worry and obsess about what other people think of me... did I call them enough, did I leave anyone out, was I sweet enough, did I offend that person because I gave them a half smile and not a giant one... UGH! I constantly feel like I need to defend myself and over explain myself and make sure that I am not hurting anyone's feelings. The truth is that I am 99.9% of the time the furthest thing from their minds. I tease that I care too much and I think too much and worry too much. I think I would rather ere on this side of the fence than the other. There is a saying that "It is better to love and be hurt than to not love at all." So, even though I wear myself out worrying, I will never stop seeking to show more and more love, but in the Bible, Jesus told us that His yoke is easy and His burden is light... Help me Lord to show your love and serve others by YOUR strength and not my own and by your leading and not by my worrying.
An apple pie is an apple pie. It does not need to tell everyone it is an apple pie or explain that it is an apple pie or defend itself or even TRY to "be" an apple pie... it just... IS. So, as the apple pie "is", so am I... I just AM... in Christ and accepted. :o) (I used the apple pie as an example because I just ate some... hehe).
Lord, I pray that you help me to be more concious of who YOU are in me. Help me to allow you to flow through me in YOUR own way, not in my way or the way I think you would want to flow. Help me to know that YOU ALONE are Saviour and YOU ALONE are God!
This morning in particular, as I came downstairs to greet the family and join them for waffles, out of nowhere I had this sense of understanding deep in my heart and mind that I am accepted. I keep hearing in my spirit "I am accepted." I am accepted in Christ and through Christ. I don't need to do one single thing to be accepted. I don't need to prove myself. I don't need to prove myself... to anyone. God showed me that I am to just walk at peace with myself knowing that my heart is right and my heart is so full of love and peace that I don't need to worry about whether or not people see that.
I tend to worry and obsess about what other people think of me... did I call them enough, did I leave anyone out, was I sweet enough, did I offend that person because I gave them a half smile and not a giant one... UGH! I constantly feel like I need to defend myself and over explain myself and make sure that I am not hurting anyone's feelings. The truth is that I am 99.9% of the time the furthest thing from their minds. I tease that I care too much and I think too much and worry too much. I think I would rather ere on this side of the fence than the other. There is a saying that "It is better to love and be hurt than to not love at all." So, even though I wear myself out worrying, I will never stop seeking to show more and more love, but in the Bible, Jesus told us that His yoke is easy and His burden is light... Help me Lord to show your love and serve others by YOUR strength and not my own and by your leading and not by my worrying.
An apple pie is an apple pie. It does not need to tell everyone it is an apple pie or explain that it is an apple pie or defend itself or even TRY to "be" an apple pie... it just... IS. So, as the apple pie "is", so am I... I just AM... in Christ and accepted. :o) (I used the apple pie as an example because I just ate some... hehe).
Lord, I pray that you help me to be more concious of who YOU are in me. Help me to allow you to flow through me in YOUR own way, not in my way or the way I think you would want to flow. Help me to know that YOU ALONE are Saviour and YOU ALONE are God!
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